Cartography of critiques

[This cartography of critiques has been “cooking” on the slow burner of the GTDF kitchen for a while now: we have been testing it in different contexts as we slowly refine it. However, we have received a few requests to make it public, even if we think it is still a bit “raw”. Therefore, take this early version with a warning that it may require further cooking and make your stomach upset. We are not sure, for example, if the metaphors we use of barking, growling, stomping and steering are the best ones. Please also note that this text will be revised as we stir the slow cooking pot.]

While critical engagements are often framed as efforts to “speak truth to power,” many of us have had the experience of offering a critique that doesn’t “land” amongst those in power, and thus, has little impact in terms of interrupting or challenging business as usual. In other words, even when we articulate what we want to say, the audience we are speaking to is often unable to hear it, either because they “can’t” hear it (it is unintelligible to them), or simply because they don’t want to hear it (it is too costly for them to hear, and they prefer to ignore it). This can be frustrating, and lead us either to assert that critique more forcefully (which can easily lead to burn out), or to resign and just give up, assuming it’s a waste of time.

Yet even amongst those who generally agree that our existing institutions are ultimately “beyond reform,” there are many possible ways to relate to and strategically navigate these institutions for as long as they continue to exist. Within the GTDF Collective, our members have a range of different responses to mainstream institutions, from those who have decided to exit or refuse the institutions entirely, to those who have chosen hacking and hospicing from within institutions. Hacking and hospicing entail working within institutions for as long as these institutions continue to exist, trying: 1) to do what you can to reduce harm (for those within and those outside who are negatively affected by institutional power), 2) to redirect and redistribute resources in the short term, and 3) to strengthen organizational capacity for moving toward deeper forms of change in the long-term. 

In other words, we do not propose or advocate for one universal mode of critique, but rather seek to develop the discernment to choose responsibly among many different possibilities for critical intervention. The critique we chose to mobilize in any given context is generally based on a number of factors, including an assessment of the intended audience of the critique, and “6 Ms”: 

  1. the message (what needs to be said to the audience that has a chance to “land”)
  2. the messenger (who is most likely to be heard by the audience)
  3. the motivation (why is or would the audience be interested)
  4. the method or medium of communication (what delivery method is most likely to land with audience)
  5. the mood (which “vibe” is most appropriate for the audience, given the affective landscape), and,
  6. the moon (the timing, context or readiness of the audience to hear certain things)

To be able to assess the 6 Ms requires that we learn how to read a context, and how we are being read – including navigating the many different relevant layers that are at play at any one time.

In this sense, we approach critical engagement with an emphasis on discerning what needs to be said in order to move what is ‘stuck’ in harmful patterns or feedback loops, rather than what we want to say (i.e. our personal desires to describe and prescribe, based on our perceived entitlements to authority, autonomy and arbitration). Rather than focus on offering critique in a particular form, we focus on how different kinds of critique can mobilize movement away from harm and toward more accountable possibilities for social organizational change. In this process, we seek to protect the integrity of the work itself, as well as our own individual integrity as people engaged in this work. We have also found that it is helpful to consider the generative interplay between multiple strategies for critical intervention – activating an ecology of different kinds of critiques, rather than limiting ourselves to one static approach. 

Below, we offer a cartography of four different modes of institutional critique before reviewing a bit how they can work together to mobilize change, and also where they can each get stuck:

The barking critique: The barking critique offers a high-volume warning of disapproval and an indication of refusal of institutional engagement (refusal to offer time and energy to the institution). Offering a critique in this way may be an effort to protect one’s time and space when it is felt that energies are best spent working in spaces and communities outside of the institution. While an institution may hear the frustration of this critique, it may not understand what is being said or why. If we think about the barking critique in terms of an institutional decision-making table, this critique generally refuses the table.

The growling critique: The growling critique is also a warning of disapproval like the barking critique, but at a lower volume. It is not necessarily an indication of refusal, as engagement may be on the table if certain demands are met. The critique signals dissatisfaction with business as usual, mistrust of those with the most power, and desire for substantive, not just cosmetic, change. The growling critique may be offered in institutional spaces, but is often relegated to the margins. This critique and its demands tend to be perceived as unrealistic or unreasonable, especially as the growling critique is articulated in a way that is not focused on how it will be read by those in power, and instead is more focused on expressing solidarity with the barking critique. Institutions may seek to appease those offering a growling critique by offering cosmetic changes that appear on the surface to be responsive to the articulated concerns, but ultimately this is perceived as insufficient from the perspective of a barking critique, and in many cases from the perspective of the growling critique as well. At the institutional decision-making table, this critique is generally relegated to the edge of the table.

The stomping critique: The stomping critique tends to emphasize that the institution has not gone far enough with their commitment to change, but it may be perceived as less disruptive than the growling critique. The critique is somewhat calibrated to what the person offering it senses will be intelligible in a given context. The stomping critique is often focused on trying to direct institutional attention to the barking and the growling critique. Sometimes those offering this critique will be focused on a specific intervention towards change; at other times, they will focus on achieving an interruption of business as usual, so that the barking and growling critiques can be heard. The stomping approach to critical engagement may be equally frustrating to those with institutional power (who think it goes too far in its critique), as well as those with the least power (who think the critique does not go far enough). With regard to an institutional decision-making table, this approach seeks to pause what is happening at the table.

The steering critique: The steering critique tends to focus on translation of the prior three critiques to those with the most institutional power. Even when the overall analyses and intentions of this critique aligns with the barking, growling, and stomping critiques, it is focused on which elements of these critiques will be perceived as compelling and consequential to those with the most decision-making power at a specific point in time (they are more attuned to the mood and the moon – what, from the critiques, can actually “land” with a lot of translation and a bit of political wit). It is often the case that, in order to be intelligible to those in power, steering critiques are articulated in ways that bracket certain implications or complexities, but in a way that  also tries to maintain a commitment to honor the orienting direction of the work and to keep things moving, an inch at a time, or more if the context allows. This approach to critique is often focused on making clear the risks involved if an organization does not respond to the concerns articulated in the barking, growling, and stomping critiques, but it does so with less of an accusatory charge than is commonly present in these other critiques, based on a sense that the concerns are more likely to be “digested” by those in power without this charge. At the institutional decision-making table, this critique seeks to reorient the table.

Generally, the barking and growling critiques seek to achieve change by being enough of an inconvenience that the institution is unable to ignore them entirely  – for instance, if this could result in reputational damage for the institution. The emphasis is on transgression, and speaking back to power with enough bravado to make sure that the critiques are not ignored. While this transgressive approach can draw the attention of the institution, it can also be easily dismissed by those who feel it is too aggressive, uncompromising, or uncollegial. Meanwhile, the stomping and steering critiques are often focused on discerning how the barking and growling critiques can “land” with those in power, by focusing on how to strategically navigate the intellectual, affective, and relational dimensions at play in any given context. The work involved in crafting the stomping and steering critiques generally happens more “backstage” than the barking and growling critiques. The strategies of stomping and steering may not achieve the stated goals of their critiques, at least not in any immediate sense. Engaging critique in these ways also runs the risk of compromising the work or oneself in ways that are not warranted (it is difficult to tell when you are playing the game or being played by it). Because of this, we have developed a set of hyper-self-reflexivity questions that can especially help those offering stomping and steering critiques to craft and calibrate their interventions in contextually-relevant ways, socially accountable ways. If interventions organized around stomping and steering critiques are calibrated appropriately and responsibly, then they can enable change by “hacking” the institution from the inside, rather than waging a frontal assault.

Some people feel that these different approaches to critique are competing for a platform or for one position to be affirmed over the others as the most righteous, morally defensible, pragmatic, or effective. However, within GTDF we have come to think of these different critiques as both indispensable and insufficient parts of an ecology of critical interventions that can work strategically together toward a common goal of organizational change away from harm and toward accountability.  One does not need to adopt a single approach to intervention, but rather can mobilize different styles of critique depending on the context – for instance, offering a barking or growling critique in relation to one issue, and a steering critique in relation to another. However, this strategic use of different critiques can be difficult (or impossible) to do if one is operating from desires for purity, single answers, an avant-garde positionality, the “middle ground”, moral high-grounds and/or identity-coherence. We also acknowledge the high price that is often paid by those who engage in barking and growling critiques, while at the same time we recognize that this price may be used as leverage towards a form of political exceptionalism and circularity that recreates many of the same patterns that have brought us to this mess we currently find ourselves in. 

S.A.D.

This text complements chapters 7 and 8 of the book Hospicing Modernity: Facing humanity’s wrongs and the implications for social activism. It was read in the fifth session of the Hospicing Modernity zoom series.

Chapter 8 was the chapter where both physical and psychological pain showed up as teachers in ways that made me naked and vulnerable. Too many stories were activated and many were edited out, especially those that exposed other members of my family without their consent. I come from a neuroatypical family where we have struggled together with responses that are considered “dysfunctional” within modernity, including responses that really added to the racial, colonial and gendered violence of modernity itself. As a young kid I had to learn quickly to “read the room”, not because I was interested in what other people were doing, but because I had to protect my safety.

The story that is mine to tell relates to a familiar “ditch” that my bus can easily fall in, especially when certain passengers “spin” and hijack the bus. With time, I have learned techniques to spot the “spinners” early and prevent a full fall in the ditch before it happens, but sometimes they take the bus driver by surprise. Those around me have had to learn this dynamic on my bus so that they know what to do and how to help. I also had to learn how to ask for help.

Today another difficult story came up and asked to be told. I am not sure why, but I will trust that it needs to be out there, regardless of the risks. I will share with you a story about the last time my bus was on the brink of a dangerous ditch, which happened just over 2 months ago, during the holiday season.

S.A.D. (what modernity calls seasonal affective disorder, or what I call the “sadness, anger and distrust” ditch) is a dis-ease that feeds the spinners on my bus. I am not sure if it is the pandemic, but I see it getting stronger in its grip (in myself and others) every year. I am quite privileged: I have a secure job that enables me to do the work I want to do and support those who need my support, I live in a collective house surrounded by people I love, I have unrestricted access to both Western and Indigenous medicines, I have elders praying for my health and wellbeing, I have the knowledge and training to identify the symptoms and to do something about it… and yet, it gets me every year. The Christmas “spirit”, coupled with traumatic stories of this “overjoyed” season (around other people in the family with S.A.D.), and the lack of light in the Northern hemisphere, only makes it worse.

At the beginning of last December, I thought I was holding it together pretty well – I felt exhausted and a bit down, but nothing major. I was holding on to the idea that this trip to Brazil we had planned for January could help me avoid the spinners this winter. When the trip got cancelled due to Omicron, I heard a bus passenger-spinner laughing: anger got stacked upon sadness, which is the second stage of the dis-ease. The world became way more irritating: the focus turned to the shadows of and in everything. First, I turned on my own body and as I was going down that rabbit hole, I found help and support to stop the toxic progression in that direction (Thank you!). But this gave a false impression that I was fine and I let my guard down. I saw it building up on the days before Christmas. I tried to repress it: to go along and get along. And then there was a spark and it exploded in the afternoon of the Xmas eve, precisely when I was trying to make it not ruin everything.

For a few hours I saw my distrust in the metabolic intelligence in full bloom:

  • I saw my ego stomping its feet to have the world as I wanted it to be, rather than facing what was presenting itself before me
  • I played the record of narratives of angels and demons, where I wanted songs sung in praise of those and what I romanticized and idealized and I wanted punishment for those I vilified and pathologized
  • I made self-righteous “work” plans to tell the world the truth about its toxicity and expose those who let it fester
  • I also planned to eliminate from my life anything and anyone who did not contribute to the elevation of my ego or validate its entitlements for choice, comfort, certainty, control and convenience

And even as I saw the trick of it all with the corner of my eye, I had no chance of stopping it on its tracks: the spinner used my glance over its own deceit to turn my distrust towards the source. As soon as I realized that my ego was spinning and tripping, the last weapon of SAD was to activate and amplify resentment towards being alive – towards the whole metabolic shabahang and its brutality. That is when S.A.D. hits me the hardest: the sense of entanglement is actually amplified and I feel horrendous pain – it feels like the pain of everything: every injustice, every sorrow, every atrocity. And, at the same time that I feel the oneness of the universe, including the pain itself, I feel abhorred and disgusted towards whoever or whatever created it. This is a familiar ditch and life is not precious in that ditch – the whole thing feels like an extremely cruel and degrading joke. In that hole, for me, the only thing that can show the universe a finger (be it a God, a Goddess or a “higher self”) is to put an end to the shitshow. That is when the entitlement to end my own life is felt the strongest.

The compelling invitation is to let this entitlement overtake you. You don’t have to do anything really, just surrender. You can also run away from it and wait for it to catch up with you, when you feel exhausted, when the spinner is stronger with the opportunity for physical exercise you have provided. As I contemplated the invitation, I remembered every time I saw this spinner in my family, over the years. I remembered that, as a contrary teacher, a trickster if you will, it won’t give up until it teaches its lesson: until someone in the family finds the beginning of an antidote, and others help to refine it. I pondered what would happen if this antidote was not found – how the weight of that responsibility would have to be passed down to the next generations in my family. I thought about everything I had tried before that had not worked. I thought about running, to buy me some time, but I knew that the more I run and repress, as I get older, the less stamina I have to resist its advances.

I had to outsmart it. I honestly did not think I could: that a**hole is canny and strong! To add to the difficulty, by this time, I had locked myself in a room, and I had someone trying to talk to me at the door, asking to come in. He had been reckless and wrong in sparking the explosion. I was mad at him, there was zero chance I could forgive him immediately. At the door, he was saying that the explosion happened for a reason, which infuriated me even more! How dare he weaponize the “fate” narrative to justify betrayal?

In the midst of all this, I did something that I had not tried before: I looked the spinner in the eye, something it was not expecting to happen. That gave me less than a second to conjure a counter-spell-narrative to buy some more time in this stand-off. “You are a family curse” I said, “that needs to be turned into a blessing”. I don’t know how to do that, I thought to myself, but I remembered that I don’t have to “know” to start the process.

I opened the door. I regained strength. I went downstairs and summoned my family. I asked them for help. We created a ritual that could send the signal that enough was enough. We used salt, we burned a chilly pepper, and we made an offering. We told the trickster teacher that we see its trickery, that it can’t live with us anymore in that way. We promised to learn to integrate its lessons (even if it was not clear exactly how that would happen). Luckily, I was only on the brink of the ditch for a few hours. We will need to repeat the ritual every year.

After that, we started going on long walks in the forest, again, always on the same tracks, so that the trees know our scent and can be asked to protect us from our own spinners.

Invitation: Check your bus. Look for the passengers who might be hiding. Observe the dynamics of the bus:

  1. How do different passengers relate to death, dying and pain?
  2. How do different passengers respond to the invitation for eldering?
  3. What are your spinners up to?
  4. What are the ditches you normally fall into?
  5. Do you know your ditches and have you named your spinners? Why would this be important for you to do?

Towards Eldering

by Cash Ahenakew

Part of the work of the GTDF collective has been around “growing up”. The term is used with reference to sobering up, to owning up and to showing up differently in the world. Previous work in this area includes a collaboration with John Cryer on the Four Mountains story, the collaborative design of Social Cartographies of Aging and a research project with the Nova Scotia AgingLab,  the Pledge of Generations, which was part of the lastwarning.org campaign of the Federation of the Huni Kui people in the Amazon, and the anti-as*holism memo.

At the heart of these collaborations was the insight that education is about “eldering”: supporting and preparing people, since the day they are born, to become good elders and ancestors for all relations, both human and non-human. This understanding of education requires us to remember that we are all part of a much larger nonlinear continuum and that our physical bodies are part of a planetary “metabolism”. In this context, when welcoming new life into the world, we need to consider where this new life is coming from, its previous existence, what this existence brings and what it needs to learn in its current (and temporary) physical body. 

The key in preparing ourselves for the movement towards eldership – or what I call “eldering” – is to relate to the world in a way that manifests trust, respect, reciprocity, consent and accountability “before will” (i.e. without it being a choice) towards everything, both human, non-human, and everything in-between. Eldering is about moving in and with the world, shape-shifting with grace, gratitude, compassion and humour, being in service of something much bigger than yourself and cooperating without excuse with the inevitability of ageing and dying.

Doing this in our current contexts where systemic violence and unsustainability are normalized is very difficult. Modern-colonial societies  encourage and reward hyper-individualistic metropolitan consumerism and the denial of the fact that our comforts and conveniences come at the expense of others and of the planet. In this context, we are  to remain young, to resent ageing and to forget our intergenerational responsibilities. 

My current understanding of eldering is informed by practices and insights coming largely from Indigenous knowledge keepers, however I am cautious about the tendency to romanticize  (or vilify) Indigenous communities and instead aim to draw learnings from collective mistakes and epiphanies of my own (and of others around me).

What I have learned so far (I just turned 60) is that eldering is the deepening and expansion of holistic capacities while one’s physical capacities decline and the time to exit the physical body draws nearer. To date, I have identified four of these holistic capacities, which include: 

1. the capacity to be present to the complex reality of things – the beautiful, the ugly, the good, the bad, the broken and the messed up within and around us (as opposed to escaping what is difficult, painful or disgusting; and/or being attached to idealized more comfortable versions of reality and of ourselves);

2. the capacity to enact visceral responsibility: to face responsibilities without excuse, which means doing what is needed at the time even if it goes against one’s self-interest (as opposed to responsibility being an intellectual choice or a matter of convenience);

3. the capacity to put oneself in service while divesting from the desire to be remembered for that service (as opposed to transactional altruism, which is often based on the desire to leave a legacy that monumentalizes one’s life or one’s name);

4. the capacity to offer a compass that can help people navigate towards collective/metabolic health and wellbeing without imprinting one’s own projections onto someone else’s path (respecting the principle of non-interference while honouring the responsibility to guide people away from mistakes already made and ditches already known).

More recently, with the GTDF collective, we have been reflecting on whether the verb “growing up” is the most appropriate word for this process. We have been wondering if “growing down” would better reflect the orientation of the call to maturity as it is issued in the context of modern/colonial societies. 

As a response to the question: “What is there to look forward to in older age?” We have collectively come up with a non-exhaustive inventory of 35 traits that signal towards the circumstances where/when growing down is a viable (or only) option.

I invite you to engage with this inventory as a pedagogical exercise. Think about the parts of you (or passengers on your bus) that identify and/or dis-identify with these traits. Reflect on where you think you are at, and where you might actually be in relation to how these traits manifest for other people in your life. Ask a good friend (who won’t coddle you) to assist you with brutally honest feedback in your “growing down” path. 

Signs of (and reasons for) “growing down”

  1. You feel less and less the need to be included, understood or validated. You do not need others to accept you, you accept yourself. You are not scared of disappointing other people’s or your own idealizations of yourself. 
  2. You are less invested in having others (or even yourself) see you as you want them to see you. You know they will see according to the frames available to them and their maturity.
  3. You crave depth and epiphanies (not peak intensity): in friendships, romantic relationships, knowledge exchanges, sex… You idealise, project and experiment less, and you try to “experience” more.
  4. You learn to scan people and rooms to identify toxic patterns of behaviour. You distinguish between the responsibility to engage and the responsibility not to engage and to step away (when the work is yours to do or not).
  5. You are not worried about being right. In fact for the most part you are worried that you might be right.
  6. You learn to observe more and more and not to react to everything. You have the capacity to hold space for what is difficult, irritating, and painful. You do not expect worthwhile things to be easy, cost-free or comfortable.
  7. You can spot when you are overreacting, you can detect and de-escalate your own tantrums, and you know how to apologise and to make up for your mistakes.
  8. You are not haunted by pain or death – you know these are inevitable and you know this intimately. You know that the fear of pain is more painful than the pain itself. You know healing is often painful. You know better not to be attached to pain. You do not avoid thinking about death and you prepare (in all aspects) for dying.
  9. You have made contact with your ancestral relations. You have a pledge of responsibility to those who have come before and those who are yet to come: to redress wrongs and not to make the same mistakes of those who came before and not to fuck up the present of those already here or for those yet to come (both human and non-human).
  10. You learn to trust your guts. If something does not feel right in your body as an intuitive response to something, you do not ignore it, you respond wisely, which includes walking away or changing direction when necessary.
  11. You learn to bring yourself to a generative state when you need to offer a different perspective. For example you learn to call something out indirectly with a tone, vibe and narrative that disarms the other side and de-escalates conflicts.
  12. You become more intimate with the mystery of (your own and other people’s) existence. You welcome uncertainty and become more forgiving.
  13. You become aware of your own delusions, fantasies and idealizations. You see the violence of your projections and welcome the loss of illusions (dis-illusion). You do not allow the constant labour of mourning illusions and delusions to turn into chronic depression.
  14. You finish mourning the unfulfilled dreams of your youth or resenting what has happened or not. You accept the cards you have been dealt and put them to good service.
  15. You stop thinking about whether you deserve good things happening – you use the time of being alive that you have left to share what you have and what you have been taught with others.
  16. You become more sceptical of your judgement. Every time you critique others you immediately think about how the same could be said about yourself at a younger age or from a different standpoint. You start shedding your arrogance.
  17. Abundant absurdities become more obvious and less onerous. You learn to appreciate and/or deploy humour as a way to relieve the burden of paradoxes and contradictions. You start to laugh at absurdities that would have made you cringe before.
  18. You become more acutely and compassionately aware of your flaws, but you become vigilant not to confuse self-compassion with licence for irresponsible indulgences.
  19. You spot your indulgences more and more and, although you cannot stop all of them at once, you learn to identify their addictive grip and to lessen its hold. You can also catch yourself when you are using your traumas for justifying indulgences and irresponsibilities.
  20. Generosity, kindness, compassion, humility and accountability are not “values”, “efforts” or “choices”, but things that come out without you having to think about it, and sometimes even against your will and self-interest.
  21. You learn to identify abuses of generosity and to not feel obliged to keep giving when generosity is perceived as obligation or entitlement. You learn to establish boundaries – quickly and unapologetically.
  22. You want to do “nothing” (REST and RECOVER) more. You feel tired without feeling guilty or having to find a justification for taking a nap – it happens suddenly and unexpectedly.
  23. You can accomplish more in a shorter time in specific areas (experience counts and your perception of time changes), but you can’t do “too intense” for too long anymore.
  24. Earnestness and candour become necessities, rather than something to be avoided, you learn how to deliver it with eloquence, grace and compassion.
  25. You learn when to be lenient and gentle and when to be firm and sharp.
  26. You don’t waste much time feeling incompetent, worthless or inadequate, but you are ruthless with “learning from your own mistakes” because there is more at stake (you are acutely aware that others can get hurt by your mistakes)!
  27. You stop focusing on accumulating things and “scoring points”. You start appreciating learning to let go (e.g. of insecurities, ego, anger and fear of death) and honouring the sacredness of your relationships.
  28. You don’t seek the stage, the spotlight or the applause, you know they are (and attract) more trouble than they are worth.
  29. You are able to spot early when something is going in a harmful direction (you have seen this before!) both within and around you and sometimes you are able to nip these in the bud.
  30. You learn the important prayer for people who are hostile towards what you bring (not to be said out loud): “I pray that you find someone wiser than me to help you to see what you need to see, to heal what you need to heal, and to do what you came to this life to do”.
  31. You learn to grow larger than your ego, your trauma and your self-pity and to hold those from a different space.
  32. You do not share unprocessed trauma with younger generations. You process and integrate life lessons in order to support those who may face similar challenges.
  33. You expect the betrayal of your expectations – you know this betrayal is the inevitable result of your own (unavoidable) idealizations. 
  34. You remove the caveats that you have placed as conditions for your healing, for example, the caveat that you can only heal when other people (especially those who have hurt you) can truly see your pain and validate the injustices that have happened to you or your people.
  35. You become suspicious when you read this list and your ego has a satisfying feeling that it describes exactly what is already happening to you. You ask a friend for a reality check.

Exercise invitation

This exercise invites you to consider your own process of ageing. It asks you to remember and process important teachings in your life having a younger or older self as an interlocutor. In part 1, you travel back in time to meet a younger self who will interview you, in part 2, you will travel forward in time to interview an older version of you.

Part 1: Travel back in time to encounter yourself at least 15 years younger (e.g. you at 18). You will meet your younger self  at a significant place. Your younger self will interview you using the two sets of questions below. For the first set of questions: choose 10 numbers from 1-30 (these are the numbers of the questions you will ask from the first set). For the second set (A-J): ask all the questions.

  • First set of questions:
  1. Have you aged well? Do you feel time has made you wiser?
  2. Are you more at ease with yourself? What is your relationship with your body?
  3. What have been the turning points in your life? What has taught you the most?
  4. What could you have done differently? What (if any) are your regrets?
  5. What do you still have to learn? What is difficult for you to learn?
  6. What (if anything) has changed in how you see the world, how you see yourself and  how you see our family?
  7. What is the most important thing for you right now? What do you most look forward to?
  8. Do you feel you have put your time and energy at service of what you feel is important?
  9. How have you worked through harmful patterns? Are there any harmful patterns you are (still) caught up in?
  10. Are you sexually content? Are you romantically fulfilled? What makes people feel attracted to you?
  11. In what circumstances do you feel lonely or alone?
  12. Who have been the greatest teachers?
  13. What are you most grateful for?
  14. What keeps you going? What makes you keep on living?
  15. What tends to bring you down? What triggers you? What makes you want to scream?
  16. How do you deal with stress, failure, disillusionment and disappointment?
  17. What has become more difficult? What has become easier?
  18. What are you worried about? What keeps you awake at night?
  19. What are you afraid of? Are you being haunted by something? Are there any ghosts of the past that are lingering?
  20. Where do you source vitality, stability and joy from?
  21. What neuroses could you identify so far? How do you self-regulate?
  22. Who is your best friend? Who can you trust? 
  23. What are your plans for ageing well and becoming a healthy, humorous and wise elder?
  24. What have you figured out about life already? What haven’t you sorted out yet?
  25. What do you keep delaying sorting out?
  26. What have you learned about love, trust and intimacy?
  27. What has hurt you the most?
  28. What memories do you often go back to?
  29. What do you think happens when your body dies? Are you prepared to die?
  30. What traumas are still haunting you? What traumas have you managed to process? What new traumas have entered the picture?

  • Second set of questions:

A. To what extent is the future different from where I am now?
B. What things will surprise me the most in the future?
C. From where you are, what is your brutally honest assessment of me as a younger self?
D. In what ways do you think you might have disappointed me?
E. What am I getting wrong? Where am I completely off track? 
F. What illusions that I have are definitely not helpful? What idealisations and delusions will cause major disappointments?
G. What am I wasting my time with? 
H. What instincts should I definitely follow?
I. What should I do more of and less of?
J. If you could whisper only one important piece of advice from the future, what would that be?

Part 2: Travel forward in time to encounter yourself at least 15 years older (e.g. you at 75). You will meet your older self at a place that you have not been to yet. You will interview your older self with the same sets of questions above. In this exercise you are invited to imagine what the responses that your wisest older self would have given. For the first set of questions: choose 10 numbers from 1-30 (these are the numbers of the questions you will ask from the first set – don’t worry if you repeat the questions you used in part 1). For the second set (A-J): ask all the questions.

What (if anything) have you been taught by the exercise (about yourself, about your relationship with the past and the future, about your relationship with ageing and death, and about your own process of “growing down”)?

Letter to prospective immigrants to what is known as Canada

The idea for this letter emerged in a conversation between a group of Indigenous researchers and immigrants residing in what is currently known as Canada and involved with the GTDF collective. The first draft was written in March 2021 for a conference about the intersections of Indigenization and internationalization in education. Subsequent drafts were expanded by Indigenous and non-Indigenous collaborators.

The current version is an invitation to make space for conversations that we feel are very important, but that are also very difficult to have: conversations about relationships at the interface between Indigenous and immigrant communities.

In the work of our collective we have found that having these conversations is difficult because they tend to be filled with complexities, paradoxes, tensions, and contradictions that can be very uncomfortable to face and easy to oversimplify. As a result, the conversations tend to be avoided, or engaged in ways that do not always attend to the many layers of complexity involved. In addition, there is a great deal of misinformation about Indigenous peoples and issues disseminated by the media and government agencies, including agencies that promote and support immigration to Canada.

This letter was written as a thought experiment and as a pedagogical effort to address misinformation and to be a stimulus for conversation.  Although the letter is addressed to prospective immigrants, it  invites us to consider the responsibilities that all non-Indigenous people already in Canada have towards Indigenous peoples here. 

We invite you to read this letter paying attention to the range of emotional responses you will experience. Observe these responses without investing in them. If you feel discomfort or resistance, turn these emotions into learning opportunities about your own desires, fears and insecurities. We have offered some questions at the end that can support conversations about this topic. This text is based on depth pedagogy and the SMDA (sobriety, maturity, discernment and accountability) orientation.

Letter

Dear prospective immigrants,

We are a small group of Indigenous researchers writing this letter to offer you information about Indigenous peoples in what is currently known as Canada that is not often available to people from other countries coming here. Canada receives around 300,000 immigrants  every year. The vast majority are economic migrants, but there are also refugees (around 30,000)  and asylum seekers (around 30,000), whose circumstances are different.  We are doing this so that those who have a choice to come to Canada or not  can make an informed decision. If you do decide to emigrate, we hope this letter helps you understand the historical context of Canada and the different realities of Indigenous peoples here. We also hope the letter can support you to recognize the responsibilities that non-Indigenous people have towards Indigenous peoples.

The information you have about Canada may have come from the popular media, word of mouth, or perhaps from the government agencies that want to promote Canada as a desirable place for education and immigration. EduCanada, for example, is a government brand that promotes education as an export of Canada. This is big business for Canada. International students bring more revenue here than many other exports. For this business to be successful, it is important to paint a beautiful picture of Canada, as one of the most multicultural, tolerant, peaceful countries in the world, a country full of opportunities for social mobility; where those who work hard enough can earn a comfortable, safe, stable, and prosperous life. This may be true for a few people, but it is not true for most .

Canada is a settler-colonial country. Understanding this is important. It means that Canada was built on lands of Indigenous peoples, which includes First Nations, Inuit, and Métis communities. Colonization is a very violent process that has been happening in this continent for more than 400 years, and is still happening today. There have been many different waves of immigration and different relationships between immigrants and Indigenous people throughout this time. When the first waves of immigrants arrived, for instance, some Indigenous communities nurtured, healed, fed, clothed, and oriented them to the land. However, especially as the numbers of immigrants grew and the quest for ‘natural resources’ and land intensified, the dominant dynamics started to shift toward violent relationships of domination, theft, humiliation and subjugation, what we call “settler-colonialism”.

Settler-colonial violence

To give you a brief idea of what these colonial relationships have entailed, settlers have:

  • violently removed Indigenous peoples and occupied their lands in order to claim property and access to ‘natural resources’;
  • confined many Indigenous people to restricted areas called reserves, and at times, forbidden them to leave those reserves without official permission;
  • excluded Indigenous peoples from accessing public education and health care; prevented Indigenous peoples from retaining lawyers to contest the seizure of their lands and children;
  • categorized Indigenous dissent as terrorism;
  • outlawed Indigenous ceremonies and cultural practices, such as the potlatch; decimated Indigenous peoples’ traditional livelihoods and sources of food;
  • created resource extraction industries that spread toxins and harm plants and wildlife;
  • spread western diseases such that whole villages were wiped out;
  • witheld supplies to intentionally create famine;
  • forcibly sterilized and sanctioned multiple forms of violence towards Indigenous women and girls; and
  • taken away Indigenous children from their families and put them in boarding schools where the children were forbidden to speak their language or retain their culture, and were subjected to physical, psychological and sexual abuse.

It is estimated that thousands of children died in these boarding schools, often called residential schools, the last of which only closed in 1996. Those in charge of the schools failed to record the deaths of many of these children and placed them in unmarked graves. In May 2021 a mass grave with 215 Indigenous children was confirmed on the grounds of the former Kamloops residential school. As more investigations followed on other residential school grounds, by September, more than 1,300 mass graves have been found, the number of children in these graves are still unknown. For years, Indigenous communities had repeatedly asked the government to fund similar investigations at other school sites, but the government refused to listen. These recent public revelations are pushing Canada to face its shameful recent history.

There are also untold histories of slavery, indentured labour, internment camps (where human rights and civil liberties of entire racialized communities were denied) and racist immigration laws in Canada, but these are not our stories to tell and, thus, they are not the focus on this letter.

Some people in Canada still believe that colonialism is all in the past, and that it doesn’t shape the present in any meaningful way. Therefore, when Indigenous peoples and others suggest that there is more work to be done to address the impacts of colonial legacies, they are often dismissed, and told to “move on” or “get over it already.” However, colonialism is not just something that happened in the past; it continues to shape everyday life for both Indigenous and non-Indigenous peoples in Canada. This is clearly evident in various paternalistic policies and pieces of legislation, including “The Indian Act”, through which Canada governs the daily lives of many First Nations peoples, treating them as children or “wards of the state.” The act was designed to favour settler interests, and although it has changed over time, among other things it has been used to regulate the movement of Indigenous peoples, undermine Indigenous governance structures and self-determination, exclude Indigenous women from their rights and preclude them from passing on those rights to their children, and thereby to ultimately decrease the number of Indigenous peoples through forcible assimilation. Different legislation dictates the relationships between the government and Inuit people, and the government and Métis people. However, many Canadians are unaware of the historical and ongoing implications of this and other legislation and policies that affect Indigenous communities. Many are also unaware of the rights of Indigenous peoples and the various responsibilities that the Canadian government has to Indigenous peoples through treaties, the UN Declaration on the Rights of Indigenous Peoples, and other agreements.

In fact, the United Nations has repeatedly drawn critical attention to Canada’s treatment of Indigenous peoples, including the negative health effects on Indigenous peoples due to their disproportionate exposure to toxic waste, and discrimination against Indigenous women. In 2021, the UN Committee on the Elimination of Racial Discrimination critiqued Canada’s continued efforts to build oil and gas pipelines without the consent of Indigenous peoples when they are built in their territories, close to their homes. Indigenous people have higher rates of poverty, food insecurity, and incarceration than other Canadians. As of 2021, 40 Indigenous communities still don’t have access to clean water on their reserves. The lives and livelihoods of many Indigenous peoples are often threatened by colonial government policies and racist crimes. A very recent example of this happened in Nova Scotia, where Indigenous fishery facilities, equipment and boats were set on fire. 

Over 50% of all children in foster care are Indigenous, even though they make up less than 8% of all children in Canada. Indigenous communities have much higher suicide rates, especially amongst children. In 2021, 84% of all Indigenous people in the province of British Columbia reported experiencing racism in the health care system. Indigenous women were forcibly sterilized by health practitioners as recently as 2018. From 2000-2015, Indigenous women were murdered at a rate almost six times higher than non-Indigenous women. More than one thousand Indigenous women and girls have been murdered or gone missing over the last 30 years.  In 2016, Colten Boushie, a young Indigenous man, was shot in the back of his head by a white man, Gerald Stanley, who was found not guilty of Boushie’s murder by an all-white jury. This is just one of many examples of how violence against Indigenous people is rarely addressed through the Canadian justice system. In fact, some members of the Canadian police publicly blamed Boushie for his own death, claiming “he got what he deserved.”

On-going colonization

The effects of colonization, especially residential schools, have left a terrible legacy for Indigenous communities. Most individuals who experienced these state-sponsored abuses returned to their communities traumatized, hurting, ashamed of their culture, and with little possibility of healing. Trying to numb this pain, some turned to substance dependence and mis-use, some resented the settlers, some resented their own people or culture, some turned violent on their own families, some ended up in prison, some ended up in the streets, some took their own lives.

However, many Indigenous people today are working to reclaim their cultures and languages, in order to heal from these legacies, as well as to restore relationships to their ancestral territories. Many are revitalizing Indigenous governance systems, laws, education, and practices of nutrition, health and well-being. Some Indigenous people believe that non-Indigenous people living on Indigenous lands should respect Indigenous governing and legal authority. Some advocate for shared governance of their territories. Some demand financial reparations, others want their land back. A few Indigenous people would prefer not to have non-Indigenous peoples living in their territories.

While colonization has been happening towards Indigenous people, the rest of the Canadian population has been told another story. Until very recently, they have been led to believe that colonization was good for most Indigenous people and it was what they wanted. Children were not taught about this terrible side of Canadian history in school. Many people grew up being taught in schools that Canada was mainly white, but open to multiculturalism, that it was a welcome, peaceful, and fair country, one where discrimination and bigotry was not part of the national identity (especially compared to the USA). Indigenous peoples were often portrayed as dangerous, promiscuous and untrustworthy. Their cultural practices and objects were appropriated and either ridiculed or turned into cliches. Thus, the people who grew up in this time mostly saw Indigenous people as lazy, violent, and less intelligent, or free-loading on the “charity” of government handouts. At best, they thought that Indigenous people needed the help of white/‘civilized’ people to “catch up” with progress and assimilate into the rest of the population, or they wished Indigenous people would disappear altogether. 

This is slowly changing now as K-12 schools are obliged to tell the history from the perspective of Indigenous people; however, there are many Canadians who did not grow up with this as part of their formal education and who do not take it well. These people often get angry and show explicit racism towards Indigenous people when their views of themselves or of Canada are challenged. They believe that Indigenous people are to blame for their own vulnerable and precarious conditions. 

Some non-Indigenous Canadians advocate for the government to do more for Indigenous people, but the government is not designed for that. The education, health, and justice systems were not created to serve Indigenous people, and instead often end up punishing them, and there is little hope that this will change any time soon. Indigenous people are systemically excluded from mainstream institutions and many of the opportunities and benefits that are afforded to other Canadians. However, it is important to clarify that this is not just about exclusion; it is also about the fact that many of the institutions, benefits, and opportunities that other Canadians enjoy are made possible because of historical and ongoing colonial processes – these promises, benefits and opportunities often come at Indigenous peoples’ expense. The issue of non-potable drinking water in many of Canada’s First Nations communities is an example of that. 

Indigenous diversity

There are more than 630 First Nations communities in Canada, as well as Inuit communities in the Arctic, and Métis communities. Both between and within different communities, Indigenous people are diverse, and have responded in different ways to colonization. Some Indigenous people rebelled against the settlers, and some still do today. Some wanted to become like the settlers, some still do today. You will see that while some Indigenous people embraced the colonial system and assimilated, many others believe that their Indigenous systems are better than the Canadian system and fight to maintain them. Some argue for a blend of the Western and Indigenous systems, but they want this blend to be done in Indigenous ways. Some Indigenous people accept or embrace capitalism, others resist it. A handful of Indigenous people are wealthy; most are not. Some Indigenous people are seeking to reclaim their traditional forms of spirituality, while others have become Christians or moved away from spirituality and religion altogether. Some Indigenous people are advocating for the return of their land to their Indigenous owners, either by way of formal legal processes, or by purchasing the land outright. As Indigenous issues have gained more media attention, the diversity of Indigenous perspectives is becoming more visible.

Some Indigenous people believe that Indigenous systems of governance should share authority and decision making power with the Canadian government in relation to immigration policies. Some Indigenous people think that immigrants are just the same as the colonial settlers or that they represent a new wave of colonization. Some believe that immigrants are given opportunities that should be given to Indigenous peoples first. Some think that the government should only encourage immigration once no Indigenous person experiences poverty. However, many Indigenous people are open to alliances of solidarity as they recognize that many immigrants also experience racism in Canada and some come from places where they have suffered similarly under other governments and foreign interventions (for example, Indigenous people in Latin America whose livelihoods have been destroyed by Canadian mining companies). 

The difficulties of reconciliation

In conversations about reconciliation, it is possible that you will not be considered an immigrant, but a “settler”in Canada. This means that, although you did not start colonialism in Canada, you benefit from it as an on-going system. 

It is only very recently that the Canadian government has acknowledged the depth of harm that was done to Indigenous people here and apologized through the Truth and Reconciliation Commission (TRC) process. But an apology cannot fix this legacy of violence, suffering and trauma; a lot of difficult work is necessary to stop the effects of what happened in the past and the harm that is still being done today, often by well-meaning people. In fact, the TRC included 94 Calls to Action in its final report. However, several members of the commission have claimed that five years on, there is little demonstration of urgency in Canadian society to put these calls into action. More institutions have moved to “include” Indigenous people, which is often fraught with problems. For instance, many non-Indigenous people resent these efforts – they prefer not to talk about the issue. They say it is in the past, they are not responsible for what their ancestors did, and they want to move on quickly. However, as institutions are pushed to acknowledge historical harms, it is getting harder for people to deflect and defer these difficult issues and conversations.

Indeed, since the end of the TRC, some things have changed and many of these things will affect you. The conflicts of colonization are still present, visible and intensifying. You will be exposed to these issues in multiple places, for example you will likely be required to engage with these issues in your workplace. You won’t be able to escape or opt out of this conflict. For example, you may need to know about this to be effective in your job. You may need to demonstrate an understanding of Indigenous struggles, and if you interact with Indigenous people you will be observed closely. A misstep can cost your job. Your children will learn about this at school. Your children may be impacted by this conflict in other ways, for instance, they may be held responsible for Canada’s historical mistakes in the future. You will need to position yourself in relation to the lands where you live and work and you will need to think about your responsibility as a settler towards Indigenous peoples. You will be required to know the communities who were here before you arrived…and perhaps establish relationships.

What is expected of you

If you decide to come to Canada, when you arrive it is likely that you will encounter Indigenous people in at least one of the following situations:

  • You will see them in protests against oil pipelines, police violence, poor social services and living conditions, government double standards
  • You will see them in institutions advocating for better services for other Indigenous people and pushing for institutions to recognize the harm caused to Indigenous people and the value of Indigenous knowledge systems
  • You will see them sometimes in precarious circumstances, experiencing hardship, homelessness, and substance misuse.
  • You will also see stories in the media and social media that are dismissive of Indigenous peoples’ perspectives and that reproduce colonial stereotypes.
  • Depending on your job, you will encounter them as customers, clients, patients, students. They may also be members of trades and professions such as teachers, doctors, lawyers, social workers, etc, although they are generally underrepresented. 
  • You will also see a few of them as CEOs, venture capitalists and pipeline shareholders striving for economic improvements for themselves and their communities
  • They may not look or act as you expect Indigenous people to look or act like.

When you hear that Indigenous people are protesting, remember that they are demanding the government to uphold their rights, and sometimes fighting in the name of all of us, against a racist, colonial system that is harmful for all, especially for the children to come. Please listen and support them if you can.

When you come across advocates in organizations who are trying to improve the lives of Indigenous people, who are pushing Western/colonial institutions to remember the violence they participate in, or who are trying to show the value of Indigenous knowledges and cultures for present and future generations, please listen and support them if you can.

When you come across Indigenous people in the streets, remember the historical and present systems of oppression that have contributed to why they have ended up there. Put yourself in their shoes, having everything taken away: your land, your language, your cultural identity, your livelihood, your dignity, and even your children. In exchange, you were given a system that keeps you in poverty and subjugated. Please support them, if you can.

When you see stories that mis-represent Indigenous peoples or that silence Indigenous peoples’ voices, look for more perspectives, including those represented in Indigenous media channels, such as APTN.

When you encounter Indigenous people through your work, remember that there is a history of harm and trauma in how these encounters have happened in colonial institutions before. Be kind, be patient, work towards trust and respect, and prioritize consent.

With all of this in mind, if you do come, you may not be responsible for Canada’s painful colonial legacies, but you will be held responsible for the ways these colonial legacies continue to harm Indigenous peoples and lands. 

This is what we would personally ask you to consider doing:

  • Educate yourself – what we offered here is a glimpse of a very long and complex story that you and your children will need to know as residents and perhaps future citizens of Canada. The UN Declaration of the Rights of Indigenous Peoples and the TRC Calls to Action are good places to start;
  • Reflect on promises and expectations that have been sold with regards to how your life is going to look like in Canada, and who bears the costs of those promises;
  • Consider your responsibilities to Indigenous communities in Canada, and the Indigenous communities of your own country;
  • If you come across a situation where an Indigenous person is being discriminated against or harassed, especially by those in positions of authority (e.g. police, doctors, teachers), be a witness if it is safe (e.g. record the interaction on your phone). If you come across other forms of discrimination towards Indigenous peoples, try to interrupt it, if you can;
  • Pause before you decide to buy land; consider not buying it, and if you do buy it, consider leaving it in your will to the original people from whom these lands were stolen. There are also organizations being formed to support Indigenous people to buy their land back: look for these initiatives in your local area, and consider contributing monthly to these initiatives, as a way of being accountable.

Complex solidarities

In some ways Indigenous people and Black and racialized immigrants have similar experiences of systemic oppression in Canada and share a history of alliances. In other ways, as settlers, immigrants are contributing to the on-going colonial oppression of Indigenous people in Canada in many different ways. Our capacity to hold this paradox and the complexities that it entails in generative ways will dictate the depth and resilience of relationships in this context. In each encounter between Indigenous and immigrant communities, these issues will be held and addressed differently, because Indigenous peoples – and immigrant communities – are very diverse (both within and between them). 

Therefore rather than proposing a single easy pathway for us all to move together towards the future, we propose that we need to learn to weave relations and move together differently in this foggy landscape, making room for what is real, painful and difficult about this process, without shaming, romanticizing, idealizing or demonizing anyone or anything. However, it is important to remember that other Indigenous people may not agree with what is proposed here – that is why we all need to avoid simplistic solutions and naive ideals of solidarity. We need to be open to having never-ending difficult conversations with sobriety, maturity, discernment and accountability. 

Thank you for considering this.

Dipping-in Questions:

  • What complexities, complicities, and paradoxes does the letter invite the reader to consider?
  • How does the letter address diversity and heterogeneity within Indigenous communities?
  • Although the letter is addressed to a prospective immigrant, what might all non-Indigenous Canadians learn from engaging with this letter?
  • Why has the conversation about the place of immigrants in a settler colonial context generally been avoided?
  • What is the next, most responsible small thing you can do to deepen your engagement with the complexities, complicities, and paradoxes raised in the letter? How is this shaped by your context and positionality?

Diving Deeper Questions:

  • What affective/emotional responses emerged during this exercise? Anxiety? Sadness? Resistance? Relief? Exhaustion? Excitement? Hope? Hopelessness? Anger? Frustration? Defensiveness? Loss? Grief? Did you manage to observe these responses without investing in them?
  • Where in your body did you experience these responses? Did you feel constriction in your throat or chest? Heaviness in our stomach? Elevated heart beat? Dry mouth? Sweaty palms? 
  • Did you witness a desire for hope in an easy form of solidarity that does not acknowledge the tensions involved in this context? How could this form of solidarity reproduce harm?
  • Did you witness a desire for the text to end with a set of solutions or satisfying resolution?
  • To what extent are you able to hold space for the aspects of yourself that you or other people would not consider pretty? How much time and energy do you invest in seeking and/or demanding validation for your knowledge, work, innocence, authority or your positive self-image? Why is this important? What do you (and others) gain and/or lose with this? What insecurities could be driving this behavioral pattern? What sensations have arisen in your body when engaging with these questions?
  • How prepared are you to hold space for difficult (painful, overwhelming, irritating) issues and conversations without wanting to be rescued/coddled or demanding quick fixes? How can you expand your capacity for that? From whom or what might you need to learn to do that?

Anti-assholism memo

Modernity/coloniality, especially in its contemporary configuration, casts a powerful spell of hyper-individualism, hyper-consumerism and (self)destructive narcissism. Through formal education, social media and job incentive packages, both mainstream and counter- cultures encourage and reward toxic behaviors.  This includes seeing ourselves as separate from each other and from “nature”, and as “exceptional” in order to justify merit and moral authority so that we can expand our entitlements and autonomy without responsibility. 

We are unconsciously wired to reproduce behaviors that support the destruction of the web of relationships we are embedded in, including the planet that we are part of and depend upon. If our contemporary cultures cannot provide a pathway for collective sobriety and maturity or a compass for repairing damage and for building relationships based on respect, reciprocity, consent, trust and accountability, human extinction is indeed around the corner. 

Realizing we are ALL fucked up and that we have become assholes may be one (or the only) way to break this spell of modernity/coloniality, to seek re-habilitation and to do the painful decluttering and composting work that is needed to get ourselves out of the mess we have created.

In our collective inquiry about assholism, we are exploring both the symptoms and potential roots of the problem. These are some of the questions we have asked:

  1. What socially sanctioned conscious and unconscious compulsions could be preventing us from building relationships based on trust, reciprocity, consent, accountability and respect?
  2. How do we benefit personally from these compulsions? How are we socially rewarded when we reproduce these behaviours?

We are also trying different tentative experiments to interrupt unconscious patterns of behavior that can limit our capacity to build generative relationships.  One of the experiments that emerged from this inquiry was a list of anti-assholism reminders that could serve as a compass for what: a)we should never do; b)we should try to do less and less of; c)we should do only when we can do it genuinely; d) we should do regardless of whether it is genuine or not (e.g. be kind).

We are now testing it to see if, through practice and repetition, the list can help us rewire unconscious harmful patterns of behavior. You are invited to take part in this experiment too. 

The first invitation is for you to read the list and to observe how you respond to the suggestions and reminders in it. What do these immediate responses say about where you are at? Pay particular attention to your positive (or negative) self-regard and how it could be in itself an important sign of delusion (of thinking you are further ahead or elsewhere in the process than you actually are). 

It may be helpful to remember that, if you were indeed already doing the generative things, you would be hyper-self-reflexive (and aware of the relapses and difficulties of doing this work), which means that you would never be sure or certain that you will respond in generative ways when crises or conflicts arise. Like a recovering alcoholic, you would never take for granted that you are out of the woods. Similar to other addictions, our modern/colonial assholism may be a treatable disease, but it is prudent to assume that it is not curable.

 As you read this list of suggestions/reminders, try to think about the rationale for each item in the context of building relations rooted in trust, respect, reciprocity, consent, accountability…

 What you should never do

  1. Think you are not part of the problem 
  2. Be self-righteous
  3. Be right at all costs (the arbiter of truth, beauty, justice and/or morality)
  4. Be arrogant or vain
  5. Be snarky or scornful
  6. Be cruel or malicious
  7. Be patronizing or paternalistic (assuming you can “help” others)
  8. Diminish other people’s existence (belittle)
  9. Assume that you are more important
  10. Put people in “their place”
  11. Think you are off the hook
  12. Absolve yourself from responsibility
  13. Weaponize this list

 What you should do less and less and then not at all (if ever possible)

  1. Assume you are one of the good ones
  2. Offer direct unsolicited advice (“you should”): it does not work
  3. Be a smartass
  4. Share dark humor or sarcasm with people for whom it can be toxic
  5. Try to micromanage things
  6. Consume things for compensating for feeling empty, anxious or sad
  7. Assume others exist to serve you or instrumentalize relationships to feel better
  8. Invizibilize the (human and other-than-human) labour necessary for you to exist
  9. Take advantage of people for personal benefit
  10. Invest in the futurity / continuity of unsustainable systems
  11. Allow your traumas and insecurities to drive your decisions – in order to do that, guess what? You need to heal, compost, integrate teachings, and let go. Awareness of trauma alone does not cut it.
  12. Take up collective space seeking personal validation or take other people’s time for granted
  13. Use victimization as a currency for personal advancement 

What you should try to do more of genuinely, and more genuinely (not as a sacrifice)

  1. Listen to critical feedback, especially about your unconscious reproduction of systemic harmful behavior. Really listen.
  2. Be humble
  3. Disarm and be disarming: offer gentle, honest and self-implicating critique when reminding others of their accountabilities
  4. Be sensibly silly, be ok with looking ridiculous
  5. Admit that you have been wrong, are wrong and will be wrong.
  6. Forgive and apologise
  7. Consider that there are other people around who also feel and whose needs are as important as yours
  8. Prioritize other people’s needs over yours more often, and then forget it, don’t keep score on this
  9. Forgive and forget other people’s debts to you
  10. Remember and repay your own debts
  11. Welcome critique and self-critique, thank those who can offer them with grace
  12. Manifest unconditional regard (acceptance without endorsement)
  13. Notice what you are failing to learn from recurrent battles by observing your resistance patterns.

What you should try to do more and more (fake it until you make it)

  1. Be kind, generous, considerate and patient
  2. Be grateful, brave and smartly fearless
  3. Laugh at yourself
  4. Be open to being surprised
  5. Welcome joy, humour and laughter
  6. Cuddle – with your body, not your narratives
  7. Do what is needed rather than what you want to do
  8. Choose to do something that is difficult for you
  9. Hold the hand of pain if they come to visit (and they will)
  10. Be curious, observe yourself without investing in narratives of success or failure, be skeptical of your own opinions
  11. Expand our capacity to hold space for complexity, uncertainty, plurality, ambiguity and volatility; embrace the gifts of your failures
  12. Always be respectful and suspicious, say what you appreciate in other people without feeding insatiable desires for, validation, gratitude or being liked (in yourself or in others)
  13. Develop layered discernment as a lifelong and life-wide goal, especially when it is difficult and inconvenient for you. Choose your battles carefully, when you can. 

 Remember: We tend to judge others by their actions and ourselves by our intentions. Be compassionate towards others and hyper-alert to your indulgences.

Exercise for friends/relatives or partners:

  1. Make a list of what would cause you to feel closer to [insert name of significant other human or non-human]?
  2. Make a list of what would cause [significant other] to feel genuinely closer to you?
  3. Make a list of what is difficult that you would need to do to move things in more generative directions in this relationship?
  4. Make a list of things that prevent you from doing that.
  5. Make a list of potential future implications and costs (for yourself and others) of you failing to move things differently?
  6. Where is your motivation grounded? Is it sustainable? Do you have enough sense of urgency and importance in relation to this issue to do the challenging and painful work of dis-investing in harmful behavior and the risky, difficult and uncertain work of getting rewired into building more generative relationships? Make a list of three things you need to remember when you become frustrated, exhausted and unmotivated with the challenges of this work.

Depth Conversations

These are reflections arising from failed experiments of bringing people together to have conversations about systemic, historical and on-going violence and the climate crisis. These patterns of failure are related to deeply entrenched habits grounded on an escalating sense of entitlement to consume knowledge, relations, experiences and drama on one’s terms.

Depth conversations start when we find ways to trick ourselves out of these habits and patterns to create room for other ways of being together, where we can sit with painful and difficult things without feeling overwhelmed or immobilized. This need not involve any knowledge that we did not already have; rather, it may be a shift in our relationship to that knowledge. This includes the courage and vulnerability to sit at the limits of knowledge and knowing, to risk being changed by what we come to know. 

In order to make an invitation to depth and out of habits of consumption, it is helpful to be clear what this kind of conversation is – and what it isn’t. 

We have noticed three kinds of conversation that tend to reproduce, encourage and reward habits of consumption. These kinds of conversation may be appropriate in certain circumstances, but it is helpful to distinguish them from what we are talking about here as depth conversation.

Depth conversation is different from: 

  1. Solutionist conversations focused on getting things done 
  2. Therapeutic conversations focused on getting ourselves to feel better 
  3. Neurotic conversations focused on placating chronic/perennial anxieties

Acknowledging the risk of caricature, we have mapped each conversation with a template that addresses the kinds of questions that people would ask themselves (intrapersonally), each other (interpersonally) and on behalf of everyone else (what we provisionally called “meta-personally”). The template also considers the fears, desires and entitlements that may characterise each type of conversation.

Getting things done conversations (solutionist)

Fear of loss of control and certainty, immobilization, powerlessness, helplessness, hopelessness

Desire for purpose, accomplishment, achievement, fulfillment, reward, activity (doing something)

Entitlement to progress (moving forward) and to agency (engineering of progress)

Intrapersonal questions: What do I need to do (to get through the day, to solve this problem, to achieve self-realization and fulfillment)?  

Interpersonal questions: How can we work together to achieve success?

Meta-personal questions: What does everyone have to do to achieve success?

Feeling better conversations (therapeutic)

Fear of pain, grief, despair, dis-illusionment, sadness, loss, disappointment 

Desire for comfort, consolation, coddling, belonging, validation of worth/benevolence and attention

Entitlement to sympathy, relief, reassurance and platform

Intrapersonal questions: How can I feel more pleasant arousals (more enthusiasm,  motivation, happiness, calmness, affective intensity)? How can I feel heard? 

Interpersonal questions: How can we all feel more pleasant arousals in this group?

Meta-personal questions: How can everyone feel more pleasant arousals?

Placating chronic anxiety (neurotic)

Fear of irrelevance, belittlement/demotion, humiliation, emptiness, meaninglessness; loss of status, visibility and platform

Desire for righteousness and rightfulness, authority, arbitration

Entitlement to affirmation, validation, totalizing codifications, leadership, collective space, time and attention

Intrapersonal questions: How can I secure my sense of self-importance?

Interpersonal questions: How can we recognize/endorse my sense of self-importance? How can we feel important together?

Meta-personal questions: How can we find the only way forward? How can everyone see the only way forward (that I see)?

Depth conversations

Fear of getting stuck in the circularity of the three conversations described before 

Desire for deeper insight, foresight, hindsight, surprise, vulnerability, humility and humour

Entitlement to not having immediate answers or answers (at all)

Intrapersonal questions: How can I be taught by difficult and painful things? What am I avoiding/denying and how is it limiting my existence?

Interpersonal questions: Beyond our ego-logical fantasies and desires, what questions are important to ask in this context and at this layer of time? What have we not been able to tap or imagine because of these fantasies/desires? How can we commit not to expect success and to being taught by the inevitable failures of our experiments?

Meta-personal questions: How did we get stuck? What is keeping us stuck? What do we systemically deny or negate to keep business as usual? How deep does the rabbit hole go? How do we prepare for what will happen when these denials are no longer possible, when we have to reckon with the consequences of our collective choices/humanity’s wrongs? What is already viable, but still/yet  unimaginable in terms of genuinely different possibilities for co-existence? 

Decolonial orientation to depth conversations

Consideration of how modernity/coloniality has been imprinted in normalised/naturalised modes of:

  • Anticipating, expecting, imagining, projecting, hoping, demanding, extracting, designing, planning, harvesting, consuming, occupying, stealing (investments in progress, success and futurity)
  • Perceiving, sensing, coding/storying, analyzing, rationalizing, critiquing, problem solving (investments in universal/totalizing forms of knowledge, authority, arbitration)
  • Exchanging and building relations, associations, solidarity, identity (investments in transactional forms of relationality)

As well as neuro-physical process that are mostly unconscious, including modes of

  • Feeling arousal/pleasure, vitality, enthusiasm, motivation, inspiration (libidinal attachments and desires)
  • And our fears, insecurities, anxieties, negations, delusions and denials (shadows)

Given our socialization within modernity/coloniality, we tend to:

  • Underestimate the depth, magnitude and extent of problems
  • Overestimate solutions and what consultations, dialogue, planning strategies and enthusiasm can do
  • Overlook complicities, complexities and contradictions
  • Invisibilize, forget, deny or miscalculate the costs of our learning,  interventions and failures
  • Misjudge the gap between where we are at and where we would like to be
  • Mistake liberation for self-actualization and solidarity for self-validation
  • Short-cut the process by choosing what can be popular/accessible over what can take us deeper

Short-circuit conversations by demanding the affirmation of CIRCULAR patterns

Depth conversation invitation

“If you want to climb a mountain and conquer a peak, taking scuba diving lessons may not be the best idea. However, if you are feeling like you are drowning at the deep end of a murky pool struggling to get to the bottom of things, learning how to use weight belts and an oxygen tank may be very helpful and sometimes life saving.” 

Is scuba diving what you need right now? Is it what you want?

Depending on what you are looking for, depth conversations may be extremely helpful or extremely frustrating. These conversations require that we walk the tightrope between desperate hope and hopelessness with honesty, humility, humor and hyper-self-reflexivity

They also require a clearing, that could be thought of as a decluttering (cleaning the attic) or composting before and as these conversations unfold. This is something that mostly happens intra-personally, therefore, it is important that you are willing to look at the unprocessed stuff you have accumulated in your internal attic or garage. If you are not willing to do that, the conversation for you and possibly for others will be short-circuited. Depth conversations require preparation that you are responsible for.

The acronym “COMPOST” gives an idea of what this preparation might entail:

Commit to developing capacity for holding space for painful and difficult things that are irritating and overwhelming, but without being immobilized or wanting to be coddled or rescued;

Own up to one’s complicity and implication in harm: the harms of violence and unsustainability required to create and maintain “the world as we know it” with the pleasures, certainties, entitlements and securities that we enjoy;

Manifest maturity: to interrupt self-infantilizations, to face and work on individual and collective “shit”, rather than denying or dumping it onto others, or spreading it around;

Pause narcissistic, hedonistic and “fixing” compulsions: in order to identify, interrupt and disinvest from harmful desires, entitlements, projections, fantasies and idealizations;

Observe your patterns of indulgence (that also manifest in refusals, rejections, and resistances) and build stamina and sobriety to show up differently: to do what is needed rather than what is pleasurable, preferable, plastic, easier, more comfortable, consumable and convenient;

Step back from self-images and self-narratives: in order to encounter the “self beyond the self”, including the beautiful, the ugly, the broken and the messed up in everything/everyone, within and around;

Turn towards unlimited visceral responsibility: with compassion, serenity, openness, solidarity, mutuality and without investments in purity, protagonism, progress or popularity.

Remember that there is no one single accessible language, methodology or structure that will make everyone feel happy (and perhaps feeling happy is not the point). If you need trigger warnings or safe spaces, this conversation may not be what you need or are looking for.

Two resources may also be useful for the decluttering and composting process. One is called “radars” for learning how to read the room and how you are being read; the other is called “circular”, which is related to common patterns of investments in conversations that become… circular. You can also try the Haruko accord.

Hijacking the collective bus

Questions that can help you spot when suspicious passengers on your bus are attempting to hijack the collective bus of a depth conversation space for other agendas:

What are your suspicious passengers asking or demanding from the space (check their maturity level, conditioned desires and perceived entitlements)? What do your vocal suspicious passengers feel entitled to and why? Are their requests coming from specific social/cultural/economic expectations and parameters of normality and normalization of violence?  What do these passengers expect to extract, mine or harvest from the space? What do they project they would feel like if they achieve their goals?  What are they deflecting or running away from? Do they need another kind of space to process difficult things (e.g. one on one support for recalibration) and who could support this process? What are the risks (for everyone) if the conversations become solutionist, therapeutic, or neurotic? What are the costs of your passengers taking the space and who pays the price?

To what extent are your suspicious passengers invested in  EPIC-A?

E exceptionalism, exaltedness, expansion of entitlements, empowerment of the ego, externalization of culpability, escape from responsibility

P progress, prosperity, purity, (heroic) protagonism, projective hope

I idealizations, innocence, immunity, indifference, indulgence

C certainty, control, compulsive consumption, comfort/convenience, (linear) coherence/ consensus

A (epistemic) authority, (unrestricted) autonomy, (justice) arbitration, (guilt) absolution, (unreserved) admiration

This draft text emerged from an on-going conversation between Vanessa Andreotti, Rene Susa and Dougald Hine.

Circular

Sharon Stein created an exercise called “CIRCULAR” (first published in this article) that identifies eight expected intellectual, affective and performative dispositional patterns that modernity has imprinted in our unconscious and that it rewards. These patterns may prevent us from sensing, relating and imagining otherwise, but since they are perceived as normal and natural, there is virtually no incentive to notice or to interrupt them. In fact, for you to be functional and intelligible within modernity/coloniality, you have to use them.

The exercise invites you to do three things:

  1. Spot these patterns as they pop up unannounced in your responses  to things going on in your life during the next seven days. You can also spot them around you, in the responses of others. You could create a bingo game with the patterns as well—lighten it up, otherwise you risk mobilizing this exercise for virtue-signalling (which is definetely not the purpose here);
  2. Observe the reward mechanisms that exist for these patterns and how you and other people derive pleasure and satisfaction from them. Reflect on the depth of the challenge of trying to change these patterns in a whole culture (but don’t despair);
  3. As you spot and observe, you are invited to “sit with” what is in front of you, with self-compassion, without praising or condemning, without vilifying, demonizing or weaponizing, without seeing these patterns as problems to be fixed.

The idea is for you to build stamina to hold space for difficult and painful things without becoming overwhelmed, immobilized or wanting to be rescued from the discomfort (e.g. by focusing on solutions, or seeking affirmation or innocence).

The intention is not to use this exercise to overcome these patterns or to establish a moral high ground – quite the opposite actually. This exercise is about expanding capacity for 4Hs: humility, honesty, humor and hyper-self-reflexivity. This gives you a glimpse of the work of hospicing modernity that the GTDF collective engages in.

Circular patterns

Continuity: Seeking the perpetuation (and perhaps expansion) of the existing system and its promised securities, certainties, and entitlements. This pattern leads people to approach change in conditional ways wherein they calculate the perceived benefits of change against potential losses, and generally do not make choices (or renounce choice in ways) that compromises their own futurity or position of advantage. E.g. “I want to transcend colonialism without giving anything up.”
Innocence: Positioning oneself outside complicity in violence, often because of one’s stated commitment to be against violence. This pattern erases how our implication in harm is largely the product of our structural positions within harmful systems, and our learned, unconscious habits of being, rather than a product of active intellectual choices to hurt others. E.g. “Because I say that I am against violent systems, that means I am no longer complicit in them.”
Recentering: Privileging the feelings, experiences, and perspectives of oneself and/or the majority group/nation/etc., rather than looking at systemic dynamics of inequality and violence, and discerning from there what actions are needed in order to work toward developing healthier possibilities for co-existence. E.g. “How will this change affect me/make me feel?”
Certainty: Desiring (and demanding) fixed, totalizing knowledge, simple and guaranteed answers to complex problems, and predeterminable outcomes before taking action. This pattern denies that all knowledge is situated and contextually (rather than universally) relevant, and that all solutions are partial, imperfect, and may reproduce the problems they seek to address, or create new ones. E.g. “I deserve to know exactly what is going to happen, when, where and how.”
Unrestricted autonomy: Placing primacy on one’s free choice and independence at the expense of honoring interdependence and responsibility. Further, this pattern envisions responsibility as an intellectual choice, often based on a cost-benefit, utility-maximizing analysis, as opposed to a visceral pull to do what is needed in order to maintain respectful reciprocal, relationships premised on trust and consent. E.g. “I am not accountable to anyone but myself, unless I choose to be.”
Leadership: Framing oneself, or another person or community, as uniquely worthy and deserving of the power to determine the type, mode and direction of change. This pattern positions the exceptional person or group above critique and outside of complicity, thereby imposing unrealistic expectations that make it difficult to acknowledge the complexities and the good, the bad, the ugly, and the broken in everyone. E.g. “Either I, or the person or group I designate, is exceptionally qualified and entitled to direct and determine the character of change.”
Authority: Appointing oneself (or a designated person) as the moral and political authority with the right to arbitrate justice, and/or an epistemological authority with the right to adjudicate the truth and the most desirable path toward change. Generally, this pattern re-silences those who are systemically ignored, and imposes one’s own desires and expectations onto others’ existence. E.g. “I should be the one to determine who and what is valuable and deserving of which rights, privileges, and punishments.”
Recognition: Seeking affirmation of one’s righteousness, redemption, and exceptionalism (often to justify one’s merit and the enjoyment of privileges). Often recognition is sought by curating (and trying to control) one’s public image and attempting to ensure that one is seen and heard as being and doing “good.” This circular pattern serves as a distraction from focusing on the work that is needed in order to interrupt harmful systemic behaviours and desires in oneself and others. E.g. “But don’t you see that I’m one of the ‘good’ ones?”

The gifts of failure

We chose the word “gesture” for the title of our collective to underscore the fact that decolonization is impossible when our livelihoods are underwritten by colonial violence and unsustainability. The food we eat, the clothes we wear, our health systems and social security, and the technologies that allow us to write about this are all subsidized by expropriation, dispossession, destitution, genocides and ecocides. There is no way around it: we cannot bypass it, the only way is through.

Therefore, we have created a workspace where we can experiment with decolonial gestures that will undoubtedly and inevitably fail. How we fail is important. It is actually in the moments when we fail that the deepest learning becomes possible and that is usually where we stumble upon something unexpected and extremely useful. Failing generatively requires both intellectual and relational rigour.

Facing failure with accountability, honesty, humility, hyper-self-reflexivity and humor is not easy, but it is a practice that GTDF is trying to develop. In this practice, no one is off the hook. The first step in this direction is to expand our capacity and disposition to hold space for difficult and painful feedback without feeling overwhelmed, immobilized or wanting to be rescued. In this sense, coddling each other is a way of betraying each other in this process of learning together.

We have a list of 10 hyper-self-reflexivity questions and a list of 10 “potholes” in the road toward decolonization that we have mapped over the years. We use both lists in internal peer reviews of our artistic, pedagogical and cartographic experiments.

Potholes in the road toward decolonization (for people in low-intensity struggle)

  1. Having a critique of colonialism means that you are already decolonized.
    Saying you are doing it does not mean you are actually doing it.
  2. Seeing all resistance to authority as anti-colonial.
    Many forms of resistance are inherently colonial and/or imperial.
  3. Celebrating all attempts to disrupt colonial patterns as contributing to decolonization.
    Most attempts to disrupt colonialism are still grounded in colonial patterns.
  4. Extracting, selectively consuming and mis-interpreting Indigenous teachings.
    The perceived entitlement to access and mastery of Indigenous knowledges is a colonial entitlement.
  5. Imagining entanglement as interconnection with beauty only.
    Rather than seeing entanglement as entanglement with “shit” as well.
  6. Emphasizing entitlements and forgetting accountabilities.
    Attempting to transcend privilege without giving anything up.
  7. Expecting other people (especially Indigenous people) to shoulder the costs of your learning.
    Attempting to decolonize without considering the impact of your work on different Indigenous peoples.
  8. Confusing self-actualization with decolonization.
    Seeing individual free/creative self-expression as a decolonial gesture.
  9. Erasing distinctions between high- and low-intensity struggles.
    Positioning yourself on the basis of individual choice rather than structural location. Flattening uneven struggles.
  10. Assuming that being a victim of systemic oppression means that you are not complicit in colonialism.
    Although vulnerabilities are unevenly distributed, no one is off the hook. We are all implicated in  historical and systemic social and ecological violence.

Hyper-self-reflexivity questions

  1. To what extent are you reproducing what you critique?
  2. To what extent are you avoiding looking at your own complicities and denials, and at whose expense?
  3. What are you doing this for? Who are you accountable to? What is your theory of change? What would you like your work to move in the world?
  4. To what extent are you aware of how you are being read by communities of high-intensity struggle? Who (in these communities) would legitimately roll their eyes at what you are doing (i.e. find it indulgent and/or self-infantilizing)?
  5. Who/what is this (work) really about? Who is benefitting the most from this work? In what ways could this work be read as self-serving or self-congratulatory?
  6. Who is your imagined audience? What do you expect from this audience? What compromises have you had to make in order for your work to be intelligible and relatable to this audience? To what extent can these compromises compromise the work itself? Who are you choosing not to upset and why? How does integrity manifest in your work?
  7. To what extent is the politics you are proposing based on the modern grammar of exceptionalism, entitlements and exaltedness that characterize political engagements within modernity?
  8. How wide is the gap between where you think you are at and where you are actually at? Who would be able to help you realize that? Would you be able to listen?
  9. To what extent can you respond with humility, honesty, humour and hyper-self-reflexivity when your work or self-image are challenged?
  10. What would you have to give up or let go of in order to go deeper?

The four mountains (collaboration with Cree elder John Crier)

This is a version of a story originally told by a Cree elder named John Crier. The story is about four mountains representing four stages of life. I (Vanessa) first heard this story from John in 2015. The story became very important in a research project that I was also part of, led by another Cree knowledge keeper, Cash Ahenakew. Cash’s project showed examples of how Indigenous education is fundamentally about preparing people, from the day they are born, to become good elders and ancestors for all relations.  John has kindly and generously given us permission to travel with this story and to write down this version of it.

Before I start, I need to remind you that, in Indigenous storytelling, stories are living entities that can land in our hearts if we let them, and dance with us. This dance can be short or long. It can also last a whole lifetime.  In this dance, different layers of meaning and sense-fullness are revealed gradually and slowly, sometimes over decades. The insights depend on the available space we have inside us. If there is too much clutter, there is often not much space for stories to move, to dance and to reveal new insights. We often need to clear the space before the stories can land.

Some Indigenous stories carry sacred knowledge that can only be revealed to specific Indigenous people. These stories need to be protected within the communities they reside. As an Indigenous elder, John carries many stories like that.  Other stories, like this one, are meant to go to places and dance with more people. Some stories want to travel to see the world and be transformed by it. This particular story turned out to be a traveling story. With John’s permission, it travelled to different Indigenous communities internationally and danced with many peoples and places. When this particular version of the story came back to the part of Turtle Island (Canada) where it came from, it had learned different dance moves from the peoples it had met and the places it had been.

With travelling stories, it is very difficult to tell the difference between what was there before it began travelling and what is new. Rather than trying to find the original dance, I just had to allow the story to come to me one day, after a fast. Then I asked John to correct what I could have mis-interpreted. Written stories, who travel on paper, have a different rhythm and dance from the stories that travel through voice and that are told in a way chosen specially for that particular person who is listening. Therefore, if you have a chance, I encourage you to hear this story from John Crier himself, if you can, while he is still around. He will be happy to hear from you. I will tell you the version of the travelling story that showed itself in our collaboration.

The four mountains

This is a story about four mountains. Each mountain represents a stage of life that human beings need to go through. There is a baby mountain, a warrior mountain, a hunter/provider mountain and an elder mountain. If all is in balance, the land, the ancestors, all relations will support the human people to move from one mountain to the other. Humans, like other beings, do not own their time or their life. It is a more powerful force, which many Indigenous people call the Great spirit or the creator, who decides the length of time we will travel through life and the visions we will receive for what and how we are meant to contribute. Some people are meant to travel only so far through the mountains – they may complete their journey early for different reasons. Sometimes, with babies, for example, the time is not right for them to stay, but they still come to visit their families for a bit, as a gift. Sometimes people get lost or find a path in the mountains that leads to a dead end, and sometimes they starve there. Sometimes people, individually or collectively, just get stuck in one mountain without the teachings they need to proceed. When this happens, the guidance of elders is necessary to help people to find the path, connect to the visions, and move in a healthier way again.

The baby mountain

The first mountain is the baby mountain. If everything is in balance, as you come to the world as a baby, you are received at the base of this mountain with unconditional regard and respect for your existence, in the arms of our parents, your elders and your communities who are committed to your wellbeing. Your first rite of passage is your first breadth. You are carried up this mountain in a bundle that strengthens the connection between your baby body and the collective bodies around you, of your extended family. Wise and healthy grandparents, grand-uncles and grand-aunties have a huge role to play in this mountain, and when they are not there, sometimes babies cannot make it to the other side. Once you reach the top of this mountain, you start to take your first steps on your own, on your way down, still held by the hand of older relations. The focus of your learning shifts to your feet on the land. You learn about how to feel and relate to the ground beneath your feet and how to thread your path carefully, with respect and reverence for the land that will hold you for the rest of the journey. Learning that you are part of creation and cared for and guided by the people, the land, the ancestors, and all relations, makes you feel in your bones that your life has intrinsic value.

The warrior mountain

The second mountain is the warrior mountain. Now that you can walk on your own, the rite of passage in this mountain is to learn to set your own boundaries and to encounter your own vision and place in the world, rather than have your parents or other people define it for you. This is the mountain where you find your unique gifts, the unique medicines you bring and that eventually you will learn to put to use as they are needed. When society is in turmoil, it is the young people starting to climb this mountain who feel the consequences the most because they have not yet established boundaries, they have unbound energy and, since they are seeking and learning about self-rule, they also tend to push back against guidance and advice. As young people look for their path on their own, they sometimes end in the wrong path when guidance is not available.

In this mountain you also need to meet and wrestle with your shadows. On the way up, it is like going into a very thick forest in the dark, in the middle of the night, with the half-moon and the stars barely illuminating the way. The trees can see your spirit, they know who you are, but they can’t tell you anything directly – you are still too self-absorbed to listen. They need to shake you out of this self-absorption to communicate with you.  As you climb up, you are really impatient.  It feels as if you can only be well if you find the answers, if you have certainty. But the role of the land as your teacher is to introduce you to the mystery of your existence. It can give you directions, usually in the form of visions and songs, but it won’t give you final answer for everything you are seeking at this point. The land will always give you what you need to take the next small step, to do the next right thing, to keep moving in a good way as your learning and your story unfold gradually. This part of the mountain path can be frustrating because your body has energy to run, but the ground is uneven requiring you to walk slowly, in order to develop patience.

Those going up this mountain often spend a lot of time fighting with the shadows of the trees. There are also many distractions on the way up: different pathway options, many different voices and choices pointing in different directions. It is like trying to find your medicine, your gift, as a needle in a haystack. Many fears and insecurities show up in this process. Fear of not being worthy. Fear of not finding the “right” answer. Fear of missing out. Fear of humiliation, rejection and abandonment. Fear of loss, pain and death. Fear of making wrong choices. Fear that life may not be worth living. Fear that your life is a mistake. Fear of ineptitude and inadequacy. In order to forget these fears many young people build an image of themselves that prevents others from seeing what is really going on.  Some young people focus on building an image where they are strong, invincible and never wrong. Others want to be seen as friendly, caring, and reliable. Some want to be seen as rebellious, transgressive and defiant. But an image is just an image and the larger the gap between how you want to be seen (and also how you want the world to be) and the many things that are actually going on within you and around you, the harder the path feels for you and the higher the chances for making wrong choices. This part of the mountain path is treacherous because you could be just living in the moment, walking in circles without direction for the longest time. It is the job of families and of elders to support you and to guide you, but sometimes they cannot show up because they are lost themselves and it could be that they got lost in the same mountain and never had an opportunity to find the path again. Specially nowadays, many people get trapped in this mountain and we lose too many of them.

Right around the corner from that difficult part of the path there is a clearing, but you can only see it when you are already exhausted from fighting with your shadows and the shadows of the trees. In this clearing you can rest, you can fast, you can breathe, you can observe, you can hear your heartbeat synchronize with the heartbeat of the earth when you calm down. If you manage to quieten your spirit and to become humble before the land, you may be contacted by the spirits that have known and observed you, the spirits who know what you need, the step that you need to take next, and the seedlings of the gifts and medicines you have inside of you. From that point of contact on, your medicines start to grow and to work through you and at least half of the fears and insecurities disappear. On the way down this mountain, you develop familiarity and closeness with your gifts, with your medicines, you learn as much as possible about them, and this feels really good in a surprising way. This good feeling is generally different than you might have been expecting or looking for on your way up this mountain.

The hunter/provider mountain

The third mountain is the hunter or provider mountain. The rite of passage of this mountain is about seeing a much bigger picture and about seeing more than the picture is showing you as well, into the past and into the future. It is also about learning to use your medicines and gifts to contribute towards the wellbeing of your family, of your community, of the land, and of all relations. Now that you have learned to establish boundaries and that you are starting to trust your own gifts, you need to learn how to offer them in a good way to your community. You need to learn when, how and how much to offer; when your medicines are good medicines, and when they can turn into poison; and how to integrate them with other medicines and gifts of other relations. This looks simple, but it is actually a period full of challenges. You will make many mistakes before you learn to work well with your own medicines and gifts and before you learn to integrate them with the medicines and gifts of others. This is a very busy and humbling period of deep learning about discernment. For example, some people may notice that you have good medicine, they may come to you to ask for or sometimes to demand some, but what you have may not be the medicine they need and you will need to know how to respond in this situation.

In this mountain you are learning to be both confident and humble; to be both autonomous and accountable; to be generous and to not allow your generosity to be exploited; to take things seriously and to laugh at yourself;  to learn quickly from your mistakes and only make new mistakes as you move to the next learning; to apologise for the suffering you have caused; to not increase other people’s labor unnecessarily; to be accountable to the human and non-human lives that sacrifice themselves to keep you alive. You learn to gift your gifts – a gift is only a gift when it is gifted. It cannot be sold. A gifted gift moves the heart of those who receive it to a place of reciprocity, but the reciprocity may not be directly back to you. You learn to trust that, as long as you are gifting your gifts and using your medicines in a good way, the land and the spirits will take care of your needs too. Sometimes you need a day job to sustain your family while you do the work with your gifts and medicines in parallel. It is important to have a clear idea of the difference between what is the job and what is the work that needs to be done.

There are also shadows in this mountain that you need to wrestle with. You may be tempted to use your gifts in destructive ways. You need to observe yourself and what is happening around you. If there is imbalance, you can turn from a hunter into a predator who takes more than the fair share from the land and who exploits the weaknesses of other beings, taking advantage of them. This happens when there are gaps in the teachings of the previous mountains. That is why it is important that very early you learn what it means to be a helper, to put your body, your gifts, and your intellect to the service of the greater good of the land and the community. Otherwise you can use your life-force to destroy relations and to destroy yourself. When these imbalances happen, there is a natural law that makes you pay the price, sometimes with your life. Be really careful there.

Once you can apply the teachings of this mountain within your own community, you are ready to learn to integrate your medicines and gifts into a much wider ecology, on the way down from the hunter/provider mountain. This is where you may be ready to mentor others who have similar medicines and gifts to your own, so that they don’t have to repeat the mistakes you have made yourself. As you see your medicines/gifts from a different perspective, you really notice how large the world is, how small you are, and, instead of feeling insignificant, you feel the opposite because you see the miracle and beauty of small things – including yourself. You realize how much you don’t know; and how much you can’t know. It is all a mystery, but you are no longer afraid of not having the answers. Shadows no longer scare you and pain no longer haunts you – you have learned to hold the hand of pain and to accept that shadows are everywhere where there is also light. You can see the beautiful and the ugly, the good and the bad, the broken and the scarred, and bear witness. You develop more reverence for the land, the planet, that holds it all together.

You start to hear the songs that move everything: the seasons, the waters, the winds, the clouds, the plants, ourselves, other animals, the cycles of life, death and renewal. You notice the rhythms and movements that transform everything around you. The sky and the stars speak with you differently. You experience time differently. Although you have already been told that everything is interconnected and you have seen glimpses of it, this time it is not just a glimpse – you cannot turn it off. You are ready for the elder mountain, but you will say that you don’t feel ready for that yet (which could be one of the signs that you are).

The elder mountain

The fourth mountain, the elder mountain, is located behind the first three mountains described so far. The rite of passage here is to help other people with their rites of passage, to develop further your hindsight, insight and foresight, and to become a good guide that can help people find their own direction according to the purpose of the mountain they are in. You will also revisit different teachings you received in your life and these teachings will show you deeper lessons. Since there is no book with an encyclopedia of directions you can give to those who need help, you will need to learn to support people who need your help by meeting them where they are at.  In order to reach the elder mountain, which is near the baby mountain, you will need to go around all three mountains and visit the places where you shifted from one mountain to the next. There you will encounter people who need your guidance to find the path where they change to a different mountain. You will pass down your own experience of climbing, especially what you have learned from the mistakes you have made as you were finding your own direction. Like the trees in the warrior mountain, you cannot tell people directly what their purpose or direction should be. This is between them and the great spirit and they need to find it for themselves through their connection with the land and with all relations. This is important, otherwise they will not have the energy or the confidence to keep moving. As an elder, you will have to collaborate with the land and create experiences where the land itself can teach, and where you are just holding and protecting the space for those teachings.

As you walk to the elder mountain, you will meet warriors that are ready to become hunters/providers, you will meet children who are ready to become warriors, and you will meet some people who are stuck. Simultaneously, you will arrive at the place where the baby mountain meets the elder mountain. In the baby mountain you will help welcome new life to your community and help carry this life to the top of the first mountain. Elders are particularly suited to carry the babies because, unlike the warriors, they have patience; and unlike the hunters/providers, they have time. Both babies and elders are close to the ancestors and of the source of life-beyond-form. Elders also have the wisdom of hindsight to protect the babies, avoiding the parts of the path that are dangerous for the young ones.

In this mountain, no one reaches the top still carrying their body. Only your spirit reaches the top. At some point along this mountain’s path you will have to shed your body. When the day of shedding the body comes, you are ready to pass away to the place of the ancestors. You are grateful for what you have been taught in this body, you have settled what needed to be settled, you have prepared your family, you have passed down your stories and your songs, the people you have mentored have become mentors themselves, you have helped people to switch mountains, you are at peace with the enormity, timelessness and incessant movement of the land. You go with empty hands. You leave everything behind. You leave no footprints. You become an ancestor and you meet those who have come before, those who are yet to come, and all the invisible relations, both human and non-human, who accompanied you in your path in all four mountains. When you shed your body, you integrate all the experiences you have had in this life and your spirit becomes one with the mystery of creation. End of the four mountain story.

Exercise To what extent has your formal education prepared you for healthy eldership of all relations? To what extent has your formal education contributed to self-infantilization? How many role models of healthy eldership – people who do not turn their back on responsibility and accountability – have you been exposed to in your life?  What have they taught that really stayed with you? In what ways did they show you that they were also flawed and fallible human beings? Which mountain were you at when you met them? What did you see these elders at the time? How do you see them now?

Education 2048 version 2

Education 2048 is a thought experiment, or rather a head/heart experiment that was developed by the GTDF collective for a conference in Germany in August 2020. The topic of the conference was utopian visions of the future and we were invited to present what we imagined schools to look like in 2048.

Since education is much broader than schooling, we found that it was problematic to assume that education in 2048 would still happen through schools. We accepted the invitation, but proposed to engage conference participants in a different kind of future-focused activity other than the one that the conference organizers had imagined. We called it the Education 2048 head/heart experiment.  Since the conference in Germany, we have used the exercise with several groups.

There are two parts to this head/heart experiment. In the first part, the experiment invites you to imagine a scenario, in the second part, you are invited to consider two sets of questions.

In the first part, the scenario places you on 10th December 2048, one hundred years from the date the Universal Declaration of Human Rights was adopted by the United Nation’s general assembly. You are in a 3D virtual reality world-skype call where people across the globe have gathered to decide the direction of education after a period of catastrophic events. These events  have happened as a result of bad human choices followed by a period where humanity managed to be taught by the consequences of their actions and to co-exist in wiser and healthier ways. In the second part of the experiment, you are invited to consider questions about the scenario and questions related to your affective responses to the experiment itself. 

If you accept the invitation to participate in this experiment, please read the whole text, even if it becomes temporarily uncomfortable: pause if and when necessary. Some people relate to this exercise through what Indigenous scholar Gregory Cajete calls the mind of reason (focusing on logical descriptions and accuracy), some relate to it through the mind of metaphor (focusing on the artistic license and movement of the imagination), some relate to it through the body (focusing on physical sensations and neurochemical responses), and some experience the exercise as a mixture of all three modes of relating.

We invite you to pay attention to what is happening in your body. Modern societies tend to suppress emotions and this is an exercise that tries to support you to expand your capacity for “holding space” to process and release them. Holding space means accepting (without endorsing) and being present to what is there, even if it is difficult, painful, irritating or overwhelming, without deflecting, turning away, feeling immobilized or demanding to be rescued from discomfort. We will need to learn to do this more generatively in order to face together the storms that are coming. We need to “grow down” (shed arrogance and perceived entitlements, be grounded and humble), in order to learn to “grow up” to become more accountable and responsible. 

 It may be useful to use the bus methodology during this exercise. This may be helpful in creating a space where you can see yourself responding to the experiment, one step removed. If resistance comes up, see it as your teacher and ask what could be behind it.  Become an observer of your own responses, without investing emotionally in them. 

Education 2048

 Imagine today is 10 December 2048 and you are participating in a 3D virtual reality world-skype call with the intent to decide how we should educate our children and ourselves after the devastating impact of the events of the past 30 years, which were caused by human greed, arrogance, stubbornness and unwillingness to learn from wrongs, failures and mistakes. For our consultation, it is important that we remember: a) what education is for; b) what the past has taught us; c) what made a difference to get us out of the mess; d) what we know now; and e) what we are still being taught. We will review these together before starting our consultation. There are one billion people on this call, a third of the world’s total population today. We will start by recalling significant events that happened in the last three decades. What you will see next is the text of this presentation only, the associated images and videos are now being transferred to your body implants, please blink twice to accept the files.

Period between 2018 and 2027

The period between 2018 and 2027 was marked by an interruption of our dreams of prosperity-as-consumerism. This period started with school climate strikes, young people seemed to be aware that the path we had chosen was both violent and unsustainable, they already knew that their generation would not have the same opportunities for social mobility that their parents and grandparents enjoyed, nor the stability and well-being afforded by their class in relatively healthy ecosystems. In 2020 the Covid-19 global pandemic hit, followed by several outbreaks of different strains of the virus. Racial tensions and civil unrest also marked this period, especially in highly divided and volatile countries like Brazil, Hong Kong, UK and the USA. 

From 2022 we had a mounting economic crisis, mass unemployment, mass homelessness, mass migration, localized famines, and the intensification of social and racial inequalities. Reactionary populist governments were democratically elected all over the world by harnessing the power of hyper-political polarization and fuelling antagonism and resentment. Extreme weather, flooding and catastrophic forest fires became routine. Pollinator populations collapsed globally in 2026. In 2019 we thought there was a silver lining to all this as we celebrated our collective efforts when we registered the smallest size of the hole in the ozone layer on record, but in 2020, the hole appeared deeper and larger than it was first discovered. For a few months of that same year, carbon emissions noticeably dropped in places where coronavirus lockdowns were observed. At the beginning of the pandemic there was much excitement that people’s attitudes towards fossil fuel travel had changed forever, but very soon emissions soared again. By the 2027 alpine skiing was only possible in the Himalayas. 

In this 10-year period, schools became even more obvious sites of political and economic struggle. Governments in many countries, including the USA and the UK, forbade teachers to talk about racial privilege or the complexities of gender and sexual identities. Teachers were also prohibited to present anti-capitalist perspectives or perspectives that challenged accounts of history authorized by the state. However, despite political disputes, the protection of unrealistic economic interests was still prioritized in the curriculum: at large, schools were still teaching a learner centered, competencies based, technology and market-oriented curriculum driven by hyper-individualistic metropolitan consumerist values and principles. By this time, curriculum, examination and school social services had largely been outsourced to private companies. In 2026 a well-known corporation in the US that had been lobbying the government for decades offered a more cost-effective option for online global education and teacher training. They standardized a global curriculum powered by artificial intelligence, causing mass teacher unemployment. They saved trillions in tax dollars but could not re-invest in social services because the funds needed to be allocated to attempt to offset the historical level of debt created by the coronavirus stimulus packages. This shift in capital created the single greatest increase in wealth inequality in historical records, with the top 0.01% amassing the equivalent net worth of 90% of the world’s population.

Period between 2028 and 2037

The period between 2028 and 2037 was marked by the real threat of human extinction. By 2028 the Amazon forest was down to a third of its size; the remainder teetered on the edge of becoming a biologically inert desert, similar to the exhausted agricultural fields of the US corn-belt. Ironically, the market share of Jeff Bezos’ Amazon company was worth a third of the total global wealth. The average temperature rose 2.47 degrees Celsius across the globe, previous mitigation efforts had been too little too late. All permanent ice in the Arctic was lost. Children read about polar bears and many other arctic species in the new histories of extinction; sad companions to the images and stories of mammoths, saber-tooth tigers, and giant land sloths that filled children’s books in the late 20th Century.

All permafrost in Siberia melted, releasing methane and unleashing viruses and fungal strains that we were not immune to or prepared for. We had extensive desertification that led to massive crop failures that, in turn, caused the global food supply chain to break down. This resulted in the worst global famine ever experienced. There were also disastrous typhoons, hurricanes and tsunamis making large areas uninhabitable. Many people were displaced. Borders were closed and militarized because of mass migration. Most states failed to sustain their welfare safety net and many people were left without any government support for healthcare, sanitation, or waste management. Pensions and unemployment benefits also became a thing of the past as systems of wage-labor foundered, and mid-human-range, future forecasting had become impossible. Reactionary dictatorships were installed. Governments used mass surveillance and AI technology, wrapped in the rhetoric of “maintaining law and order”, to sweep away civil rights and freedoms and control citizen mobility. Torture and genocide against people and groups perceived as inconvenient increased at an alarming rate and became a normalized extension of police and military tactics. Nuclear and biological-weapons were unleashed in wars.

Five factors contributed to unparalleled loss of human life during this time: 1) unprecedented famines; 2) major viral and fungal outbreaks; 3) a global mental health crisis; 4) incurable new diseases caused by combined toxins and micro-plastics in food and water; 5) violent civil conflicts, including state sanctioned violence, terrorism and police brutality. Needless to say that Black, Indigenous and racialized populations were disproportionately targeted by state-sponsored violence and suffered the most in these events due to unparalleled levels of inequality. It is important to acknowledge that many of these people and communities had been experiencing these levels of trauma for generations, and had been sounding the alarm for ages, but most of us were indifferent and focused on trying to sustain our way of life in spite of all evidence that it was deadly.

Online schooling became unviable in 2033, and the corporation that had taken over global online learning went bankrupt in 2034, although the C-suite executives received very generous payouts, bonuses, and severance packages prior to dissolution. The global economy completely collapsed in 2036, a year after Elon Musk started a human colony on Mars.

Period between 2038 and 2047

In the period between 2038 and 2047, we finally accepted that we were part of the problem and that we needed to get our shit together, grow up and engage with our messy and painful reality to avoid being wiped out. The Mars colony tragically failed in 2038 destroying our hopes for life on another planet. In 2039, a massive event made us all suddenly realize that we had messed up big time. We realized that we were addicted to arrogance, consumption, unaccountable autonomy and control. We realized that we needed mass re-habilitation. We grasped the gravity of the fact that we were only 3 billion people left on the planet. We understood that we had caused the extinction of 70% of all species – and the extinction of all life in whole parts of the Earth – and we were extremely close to causing our own. We recognized that planet Earth is alive and we are part of its metabolism, not the center of the world, or a special species. We also worked out that humanity is capable of both horrendous and wonderful things. We started to face our own and others’ humanity in all its complexity and to be taught by the human wrongs we had inflicted upon each other, upon other beings and upon the planet.

 Then we all had to learn quickly, collectively and without schools or moral manifestos:

  • to heal intellectually, emotionally, relationally, economically, ecologically and politically;
  • to abolish colonial and racial violence, inequality, hierarchies of worth and separations;
  • to center the Earth and de-center our egos, identities, human narratives and projections;
  • to age and to die in generative ways;
  • to care for everything and everyone, rather than compete;
  • to plant, to repurpose technology, to compost, to repair and to regenerate everything;
  • to prioritize the common good for humans, non-humans and the planet;
  • to use words and conversation carefully and wisely, with humility and maturity;
  • to own up, to sober up, to clean up, to grow up, to show up and to exist differently.

 So today, 10 December 2048, we convene to decide how to educate our children for human responsibility considering the needs of the next seven generations of humans and non-humans alike. We need our children to learn from human wrongs: from the violence and unsustainability caused by humanity, from our repeated mistakes of the past so that they can only make different mistakes in their future. From the day children are born, their education should prepare them to become healthy and wise elders and good ancestors for all relations. We cannot afford to repeat history. Today we decide how to do this together, as a planet-wide human and non-human family[i].

This is the end of the scenario. In the second part of this head/heart experiment, you are invited to engage with two sets of questions organized in two groups: .‘dipping-in’ questions that invite you to engage with the scenario itself, and ‘deeper-dive’ questions that invite you to engage with the way you engaged with the scenario.

Dipping-in questions:

  1. What do you think was the event that made us realize we needed another way to (co)exist?
  2. Recall a memorable moment in your own process of realization. What sensations are in your body? What did you grieve losing the most? · What was the rehab process like? For you and those around you? What did it entail? Was it painful? Uncomfortable? Difficult? What are you most grateful to have experienced?
  3. What motivated us to keep going on an unsustainable and violent path until 2039? How were policies, technologies and market economies used to support violence and unsustainability? 
  4. What do you remember wanting most during that time? What sensations can you feel in your body when you recall this desire?
  5. How might your habits of seeking and/or demanding validation for your knowledge, work or positive self-image have been part of this motivation?
  6. What motivated us to keep going on a different path after 2039? What healthier and wiser forms of organization and economies emerged? How was technology used to support a different form of (co)existence? Had your own needs, dreams and desires changed?
  7. Who were the people who survived? Who perished? Why? 
  8. Did you know the answer to the question above? How come you knew?
  9. What did we fail to learn up to 2018 that could have prevented the most harmful events of the next two decades?
  10. Knowing what you know in 2048, if you could go back to 2020, what advice would you give to the people who are about to face the events that unfolded? After giving general advice, choose one person and make a special message for them.

Diving deeper questions:

  1. What affective responses emerged during this exercise? Anxiety? Sadness? Resistance? Relief? Exhaustion? Excitement? Hope? Hopelessness? Anger? Frustration? Defensiveness? Loss? Grief?
  2. Did you manage to observe these responses without trying to interpret them and without investing emotionally?
  3. The collapse described in the scenario has already happened for many people and other species. In many cases, the “collapse” they face on a daily basis is what maintains the comforts, enjoyments, securities and conveniences of those of us who have so far been protected from it. How do you relate to your own complicity in violence and unsustainability? How does your body respond when you reflect on this?
  4. How did your body respond to the portrayal of humanity as arrogant, stubborn and unwilling to learn? Who would likely see humanity from this perspective? Did you witness a desire for humanity to be portrayed only as beautiful, brave, wise, loving and kind? Do you hope that alternative leaders, groups or movements will have the answers to our predicament? What could these desires and forms of hope prevent us from acknowledging, addressing and experiencing?
  5. Did you witness a desire for hope in the continuity of our current system and reassurance that everything would be ok? Who do you think could characterize this desire as a form of self-infantilization? Or as a form of harm?
  6. To what extent are you able to hold space for the aspects of yourself that you or other people would not consider pretty? How much time and energy do you invest in seeking and/or demanding validation for your knowledge, work or your positive self-image? Why is this important? What do you (and others) gain and/or lose with this? What insecurities could be driving this behavioral pattern? What sensations have arisen in your body when engaging with these questions?
  7. How prepared are you to hold space for difficult (painful, overwhelming, irritating) issues and conversations without wanting to be rescued/coddled or demanding quick fixes? How can you expand your capacity for that? From whom or what might you need to learn to do that?
  8. What affective work do you think will be necessary for people to choose a path of relational maturity, sobriety, humility and accountability where we can face storms together without hurting (or killing) each other or further harming (or fully destroying) the planet and other non-human beings? What do you feel is necessary now for this to start to happen?
  9. What realizations (if any) have you had with this exercise?
  10. As we presented this experiment in different educational contexts, we observed and mapped the four clusters of responses below. Which cluster or clusters best resonate with your responses? Why do you think this is the case?
  • Relief (with the articulation of catastrophe), anger (at our inability to see this already happening), excitement (that we are finally talking about it), scepticism (in relation to the awakening presented as a conclusion) [depth orientation]
  • Surprise (with the exercise), anxiety (with the unfolding catastrophe), hope (with the conclusion), concern (for the length of time it could take for solutions to be found) [breadth/solution orientation]
  • Resistance (to the exercise), opposition (to the existence of the exercise), fear (of hopelessness caused by the exercise), despair (with the scenario), overwhelm (with the complexity of the situation), denial (of being affected or complicit) [avoidance state]
  • Bewilderment (at the scale of the problem), disorientation (with your own priorities), un-ease (with leaving this open), feeling ill-equipped (to take next steps), exhaustion (“open heart surgery” feeling) [rupture state]

We strongly recommend the text and exercise “co-sensing with radical tenderness” as a way to wrap up  the experiment in a generative way, especially for those who feel bewildered and dis-oriented.

This head/heart experiment heeds the Indigenous insight that amongst all other animals, humans are the youngest, and amongst all human cultures, the modern culture is the youngest and is caught up in a loop of immature, irresponsible and self-infantilizing behaviours. This experiment issues an invitation for all humans, but in particular, modern humans, to wake up, to smarten up, to step up, to own up, to clean up, to grow up and to show up differently as the planet and humanity within it face enormous challenges.

We also recommend the text “Preparing for the end of the world as we know it” and the resources listed on this related project if you are interested in exploring this topic further.

See also this UNESCO background paper for the Futures of Education initiative written by the Common Worlds Research collective “Learning to become with the world: Education for Future Survival” (2020)